album: "Stabbing Westward" (2001)
"So Far Away"
Each night I feel the distance that has grown between us
Open up as lonely as the space between the stars
I wish that I could find a way
To smash my fist right through these walls
Of ugliness and emptiness
And gently touch your face
But every time that I touch you
You feel so far away
And every time that you need me
I feel so far away
As you lie silently beside me choking back your tears
I wonder if you recognize
That silence now defines us
Desperately I try to fight this overwhelming sense
That I may never find
The strength to change
How hopeless we've become
We need to find a way to break this silence
We need to find a way to break this silence that's between us
So I scream your name
But every time that I touch you
You feel so far away
And every time that you need me
I feel so far away
And every time that you reach out
You feel me pull away
And every time that I touch you, I touch you, I touch you
You feel so far away
"Perfect"
Lately I've noticed
How much you've changed
Even though you swear
You're the same
So why do I feel
A million miles away?
Why do I feel
Like we're broken?
Why can't it be
Perfect like it used to be?
Why can't we be
Perfect?
Perfect is how I
Once described our love
But that was before
We fell apart
So why do I feel
A million miles away?
Why do I feel
Like we're broken?
It used to be perfect
Lately I've noticed
How much you've changed
Even though you swear
You're the same
It used to be perfect
"I Remember"
Do you ever wonder where
We would be if we'd have tried
A little harder?
It seems like yesterday
That we were making plans
For the future
But it's been so long
Since I have known the truth
These dreams we've left abandoned
And I'm haunted by your face
And the memory of your kisses
Sweet kisses
Do you remember?
I still remember so much
I remember never feeling so alive
Do you remember?
I still can't forget your touch
We swore that we would never end
We knew our love transcend space and time
Do you remember?
I still remember so much
I remember never feeling so alive
Do you remember?
I still can't forget your touch
We swore that we would never end
These memories slip away
The ghost of what we were
Is fading
But there is no more pain
Which is funny 'cause that night
I was dying
Now I don't even recognize
The girl I swore that someday
I would marry
But I can't forget her face
And I can't forget her kisses
Sweet kisses
Do you remember?
I still remember so much
Or how we swore that we would never be alone
Do you remember?
I still remember so much
I remember never feeling so alive
Do you remember?
'Cause I still remember so much
We swore that we would never end
We knew our love transcend space and time
Do you remember?
God I remember so much
"Wasted"
I've spent
My life
Running from the emptiness
That haunts me
And I've felt
My whole life
Trying to fuck
The loneliness away
And I die
Inside
When I think of all the people
I have damaged
And I'm tired
I'm so tired
And there's no one else
Except myself to blame
My life's been wasted
Everything is gone
My life's been wasted
And I am all alone
My life's been wasted
There is no one else
My life's been wasted
It's time I face myself
I've spent
My life
Trapped inside
A cycle of self destruction
And I've spent
My whole life
Trying to numb
The pain inside my soul
And furious
I cry
When I realized
I fought this war with no one
I'm tired
I'm so fucking tired
Gotta find a way
To keep myself alive
When I reach the end
Will anything I've done
Mean anything?
Will anything I've done mean anything?
"Happy"
I know you've grown to hate me
Even more than you have
Grown to hate yourself
But has it really made a difference?
Sharing all that hate
With someone else?
Please tell me
Are you really happy?
Do you think he's really worth the pain?
Tell me
Are you really happy?
Or did you simply throw our life away
Just to be unhappy?
Does he worship and adore you?
Does he make you feel so
Beautifully complete?
Is your life so much better now?
Or do the same
Old demons haunt just me?
Is he everything you've dreamed of?
I'd imagine he is
So much more than me
You know I tried to make you happy
But I believe
You thrive on misery
"The Only Thing"
All I need
Is the air you breath
All I need
Is the air I breathe
All you need
Is the air we breathe
There are so many things
We need so desperately
And the TV preaches
We can't live without them
You tell me what is neat
I'll tell ya what I believe
If I ever were without it
Then I'd be worthless
'Cause you are everything
The only thing that matters
You are everything
The only thing that I need
You are everything
The only thing that matters
Yes you are everything
You are the air I breathe
I wonder if some day
We took all their toys away
Do you think they'd find the strength
To go on living?
'Cause deep inside I know
If I lost everything I owned
I'd be a king
As long as you're beside me
'Cause you are everything
The only thing that matters
Yes you are everything
The only thing I need
My love means everything
The only thing that matters
Yes you are everything
You are the air I breathe
The air I breathe
I hope someday they find
A place to bid online
Where all lost souls
Can find themselves some meaning
I know we'll survive
All we need's more time
As long as we've got love, and art,
And the ocean
And we are everything
The only thing that matters
We are everything
There's nothing else I need
Our love is everything
The only thing that matters
Cause we are everything
You are the air I breathe
The air I breathe
"Angel"
I believed that love was sacred
As I dove blindly into her sea
You see, that warm embrace felt more like drowning
As endless waves crashed over me
She was an insatiable black hole
Feeding off my mind and off my soul
I find love humilating
Sick and desperate need that drains me
God I hope I never feel again
But I've never been loved by an angel
I've never felt anything so pure
I've never been loved by an angel
Until tonight your heaven filled my room
She showed me love could lift me higher
With a kiss she reparied these broken wings
She revived my fading spirit
Restored my faith in everything
I have never felt I had a home
Even in a crowd I felt alone
I'd almost given up on life
I'm fully determined now
And never thought I'd ever feel again
I believed in nothing
But you believe in me
I thought that life was worthless
But you told me I'm a star
"Breathe You In"
Tomorrow came too soon
I barely made it through today
Still empty inside
I guess nothing's really changed
I'm still afraid to feel
'Cause I cannot take the pain
I'm still afraid to feel
Afraid to lose someone again
I wish that somehow
I could leave
My past behind
My fears behind
If I could only breathe you in
Every drop of you
I guess it's time to face the truth
And admit my past mistakes
Come to terms with all that's wrong with me
And all the things I'll never be
Why am I afraid to feel?
Afraid of what is true?
Why am I afraid to feel?
When all I really want is you?
To taste your skin
To share your thoughts
Would never be enough for me
"High"
I can't hide it
I can't find it
When every nerve is
Crying out for release
I can't capture
The rapture
That passion that is
Burning inside me
I've lost so much
Chasing the perfect high
I've lost so much
I've never been as high as I was with you
Never been so high
I've never been as high as I was with you
I finally realized that's a perfect high
That's a perfect high
This hunger
It consumes me
I lost my soul as you came rushing
In my veins
A pathetic
Little junkie
But I'm the whore
That needs it one last time
I've lost so much
Chasing the perfect high
I've lost so much
That's a perfect high
"Television"
I sit alone contemplating
What is missing inside me
I desperately try to remember
A life that's not meant to be
I meditate
And try to recapture
Some sense of reality
In my life
When I look around
I see numb empty faces
The world is waiting to die
And this apathy
Is so suffocating
The slow decay of my mind
I've searched the world
For someone with answers
To questions that are plaguing me
I scream in vain
To anyone who'll listen
But everbody's watchin' TV
Is anyone alive?
Am I lost in a world
Where nothing matters?
Am I lost in a world
Where no one cares?
Is anyone alive?
Are we lost in a world
Where nothing matters?
Are we lost in a world
Where no one cares?
Is anyone alive?
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